28th
take a day.
sooooooooooo..
had an ultrasound today. lost more fluid. i knew that already. but on his little test, he scored another perfect score.. it’s a combination of 2 points for movement, tone, fluid and lung inflation or something along those lines. don’t know how it can be perfect with low fluid, but whatever, i don’t make the rules. anyway, after the ultrasound they sent in the douchebag of all doctors. he made me cry. :[
he basically didn’t even bother to read my little file or anything and just made assumptions. he told me they were going to try and keep me here until 35-36 weeks. that’s what made me cry. i just kept thinking, “i can’t sit in that room and stare at those walls anymore!” i’m not trying to be selfish in anyway, i want the very best for oliver but i freaked. mitch is home from tour and i’m not working and leaving my room today to go get the ultrasound was the first time in 8 days i had seen outside this room. it’s just been so overwhelming. just too much at times. anyway, they brought me back upstairs and my mom and mitch were waiting and i was crying and the nurses came in and everyone was asking what he said… ugh. it was too much. i hate not knowing, i hate having to wait every day to find out what the hell is going on.
well then my actual doctor, or one of the 3 i see, came in. and she FINALLY gave me the game plan. she called the douchebag doctor from the perinatal office and they decided they are going in to get oliver on THURSDAY. i won’t know the exact time of my c section [which i have to get because oliver is breeched] until wednesday, but it’s a go for thursday.. here i thought i would be 34 weeks on friday, but i’m not any good at math, clearly.. so thursday it is. dr. yeh [pronounced yay.. haha] explained the whole surgery to me, what to expect, yada yada.. and said i would be good to go home on monday. still a week a way, but at least the second half of it my boy’s going to be here. clearly, we won’t know when oliver can come home until he’s out and all, but i’ve been told everything from 6 weeks to 3 days. we’re just trying to keep positive spirits and vibes and hope he can come home as early as possible. thankfully we literally live within walking distance and can come and spend every day with him until he can come home.
so clearly, all i ask is that everyone send their positive vibes towards his little spirit so that he is healthy and comes home as soon as possible. i’m not even worried about myself, i know i will recover fine from this. i’m a trooper, it’s just some stitches and pain. i’ve had similar surgery in the same spot so i have an idea of what to expect. and many people have said they want to come see him, but nicu rules are parents and grandparents, so as soon as he’s home we can arrange his first meet and greet.
mitch will be returning to tour august 12th. he won’t be home for my birthday.. :[ but i understand and it’s just another birthday. plus, oliver will be here so it will be special enough in itself to have him here.. and to be able to have a margarita! damn, i have missed those. i would like to do something, maybe dinner or something.. i guess we will seeeee what happens in the next few weeks.
damn, life is nuts sometimes.
