August 2008
1 post
bittersweet.
i finally get to go home today. i get to shower in my shower, sleep in my bed. fuck yah. but it’s not going to be the same homecoming without my little man. i knew going into this whole water breaking fiasco that i would be going home without him, but to actually now be in the act of going home.. ugh. it makes me cry and hurts my heart. [not to mention the crazy hormones going thru me, or...
July 2008
6 posts
sleeping aid.
7:30 am.
oliver kingslee george.
send your positive vibes our way. please and thank you.
xoxo.
take a day.
sooooooooooo..
had an ultrasound today. lost more fluid. i knew that already. but on his little test, he scored another perfect score.. it’s a combination of 2 points for movement, tone, fluid and lung inflation or something along those lines. don’t know how it can be perfect with low fluid, but whatever, i don’t make the rules. anyway, after the ultrasound they sent in the...
august 1st.
so the doctor came in today and pretty much assured me that they are going to slice me open next friday and get this boy out. it doesn’t seem as though my condition is going to get better, so as long as it doesn’t get worse…
.. oliver kingslee will be born on august 1st. 14 days before my birthday, and making him a leo, just like me. i wonder how that dynamic is going to work...
24/23
my 24th birthday is in 23 days. i don’t feel 24. i don’t think i look 24. actually, someone at the hospital thought i was 16. i guess i should take that as a compliment.. ?
i wonder what this birthday is going to be like. will oliver be here? they keep telling me different things. now they are saying if i stop leaking for longer than 5 days and he passes his little...
“i color the sky with you, i let you choose the blue.”
– mates of state
day 3 & counting.
day three at the hospital is almost over. without a doubt one of the most boring and uncomfortable times in my life. my mom keeps saying, “this baby obviously wants to be with you..” which is sweet in nature but oh man, i don’t think i will have any other children after this.
not knowing i was pregnant till i was 4 months… then ending up in the hospital four months later...